[spider-ndwalz]

Why do we go through the motions?- they are like a never ending rollercoaster; they keep coming and going - what is life for- miserable few years of searching and wanting and in the end it wont mean a damn thing. My life is like a passing shadow- vague and quick- no memory- no history- no damn ####ing thing. Where do you run to when you hurt like this- whose arms will be quick to embrace you? You remember the song-“ nobody gets too much heaven no more- its as harder to come by- am waiting in line’’. I wish I could just go away – go someplace and be alone- be alone forever. I wish I could say what I want and not what others want for me- I wish I could speak my mind and forget every other ####ing voice that tries to speak my mind for me- I wish I could find me and not hide within other people and what they perceive me to be. I wish I could live free and live this moment. I wish so much; I could listen to my heart and what it tells me and not voices of humanity telling me what they ‘ know’ is best for me. I wish with all my soul that my nothingness would cease and I would be something or someone great.
I wish to change the world and bring forth something lovely, something beautiful…something fly. I wish every other day that I would revolutionize my thinking- do whatever that I was meant to do- and just be glad. I wish every passing minute that this bottle wouldn’t take a toll in my life and I would find me; I wish something or someone would find me- find me and tell me it will all be okay. Mmmmh…the boldness that comes with being drunk is indeed commendable-. Sitting in the silence and waiting, having closed the drapes. Waiting for whatever it is we wait for- after all is said and done- that thing- that thing we yearn and yet we don’t know what it is…. that thing we want but barely recognize-. How twisted life can be, but does that mean you let your very life be twisted along with it. Hell no- do what you have to-- love life- want life- leave at least a memory; a history- a mark to show ‘ I was here’ and then do whatever you want to do- whatever it is you wish to. Probably being low is a good thing- it helps you appreciate what being well means. However, this life is like a trick question – only that there is no trick involved and the results can be overwhelming- painful or better yet- amazing- this life- a joke in itself- but no joke involved at all.

‘ Life is like a passing shadow- vague and quick- it comes and it goes- and with it carries the memories and history of what you made it to be. Life is a trick question- only there is no trick involved therein’


Written by carolndwalz- all rights reserved

[cwangari]

PSALMS 136 .....:)

[petermaumau]

Ha
Perfect case of the Philosopher... Try Ecclesiastes... Now that JJamma Had it all and look at the conclusion

Great Book...

[TeamManager]

Now all has been heard;
here is the conclusion of the matter:
Fear God and keep his commandments,
for this is the whole duty of man.

For God will bring every deed into judgment,
including every hidden thing,
whether it is good or evil.