[LadyM]

Cybil,
Your response to Dush was pure garbage and you were better off not responding if you had nothing useful to say to her.

The tongue is a very dangerous weapon. You better watch what you say coz before you know it AIDS will hit very close to home as it has done to very many individuals. Actually,it may turn out to be something worse than AIDS.

[LadyM]

Wakili,
One thing you must realise is that HIV/AIDS has a serious stigma attached to it. Its not like cancer or lupus where you get instant sympathy or compassion.
This is a disease that is heavily criticised and despised.
Therefore do not expect Dush to go out there to Safari or wherever waving her hand to everyone..."hey am Dush, the HIV positive girl".

I am HIV positive myself and believe me I would not openly disclose my identity to strangers I have met on Mashada. I do not think Dush implied that mashadites at Safari declined to meet her. She was just expressing one of the fears she has which I also happen to have, how will people react when they meet me for the first time?

To safeguard our reputation I think we are better of keeping the lid on. Until Kenyans move beyond the ignorance they have pertaining HIV/AIDS individuals such as that displayed by one of your own fellow mashadite Cybil,then will we have the freedom to openly declare our status in public.

For the likes of Cybil,death is inevitable and no one should feel empowered over others just because of their negative HIV status. Lets be mature and employ deep thought before lashing out at HIV/AIDS victims.

[Matumbo]

Dush am here if you need a friend to talk too, or a shoulder to cry on, feel free to hola at me. I have nothing against those with sickness we think or consider a taboo, as today it's you and tomorrow its me.
Keep ya chin up gal and dont let the arrogance of some people make feel like you are nothing, for you are greater than you persive yourself to be.

Matush.

[hieroglyphics]

damn i didnt know you were hiv+ please seek tha advice of a counselor. thats all i can say.

[Kanice]

I usually view your posts as a way to educate other people on the disease. Whenever you express what you are feeling and what your fears are, I always wonder if the people who read your posts in turn educate their friends/family on the effects of this disease. Some of the questions that come to mind are: Would we want our loved ones going thro this? Is this what I would like to see myself, boyfriend/girlfriend/sister/brother/ friend go thro as a result of my negligence? For those who view being a player as the #1 thing in their lives…. Would you like your loved ones always feeling like they don’t fit in the society or feel less of themselves because one has to hop from one partner to another AND without protection? I’m sure there are many of us out there that have taken the test. Do you remember the waiting period? Your whole life flashes before you. You try to tell yourself over and over how faithful you have been, but then again, … you start wondering, maybe that one time I accidentally cut myself while doing this and that….., has my partner ever cheated on me? Was he protected? It does not matter how many times you take the test. The ‘what ifs’ are countless.

>Same as the world out there. I am not on anyone's list. To have as a friend, or to date, or to hang out with.

‘Who would you like to meet from Mashada Post’ You are one of the people I listed that I’d like to meet. Not just because I want to know who you are, but I remember reading one of your posts where you had said, you know who infect you and that you hold no grudges against him. Those words touched me. I’ve always wanted to meet this strong woman.


>Because I am a walking corpse, dead within, no matter how much I love and want >to be loved - there will be no one for me.

Consider yourself lucky because you are still healthy despite the fact that you have the virus. There are others who get it and just like that they are gone. We may not be HIV + but that does not mean we are immune to death. Who knows whether I’ll make it home or get into an accident/who knows whether I’ll live to see tomorrow? Dush, you’ll find someone. Good things come to those who wait. God has a plan for you.

It’s only natural to pity oneself when we are in situations that others don’t understand, however, I would suggest contributing to some of those posts i.e. ‘Who would you like to meet from Mashada’ or ‘what book are you reading’ ‘what’s your favorite show’ ‘celebrity date’…….they are fun and help to divert our thoughts.

>Because I do not want anyone pointing fingers at me.

I know you want to be you, however, have you considered getting another handle. One that you can use when you go a bash like Safari? That way, you avoid those curious eyes and get to mingle with the rest of the Mashada crowd?

>I said before I use this web site to say things I would not normally say to anyone face to face

Dush, we chose to express ourselves in different ways. Any time you or LadyM are feeling down, you can post on Mashada and we’ll be there to support you.

Much love





Don't ever be afraid to try to make things better you might be surprised at the results.

[dush]

Thanks Kanice and everyone who lend a voice to this post. I feel much better. Yeah even you Cybil.

May God Bless and keep you all well, it's Friday and the week is over.

[shushu]

of course you will get there someday.
dont let things get you down.
dont forget you have so much to be greatful for. above all make God your no. one friend. He is always gonna be there no matter the situation. He will carry you through.
beleive in yourself.
Bless you.

[kanyau]

Dush you seem to have many to hold your hand in here and that is good. There is many of us out here who do not know u personally pray for you to get strength to face each day.

For many like cybil tis sad to know that there are venomous ppl like you out there. I second Matumbo when he quotes that song by Ian Mbugua a while back..."Leo ni mimi, Kesho mwingine". A post on dicrimination says..."not anyone can become black or a woman, but anyone can become handicapped(sick)." Never point a finger at someone because you never know when the finger will be pointed back at you. To look down on others with spite shall get you nowhere in life if you mean not to help dont be a dog in a manger, live and let live. Let the good samaritans help the fallen and the weak.

Dush gal, to you and LadyM much love and respect for holding it up. There is an end to this life and all of us shall meet it one way or another. I hope for u all the happiness that one can see.

[ndume1]

Hey Dush. Keep up the Good that you are doing. Lady M. you too. Fight the good fight and to the both of you and many others in the same boat, do not give up on yourselves or even on us when we are ignorant or arrogant. you have the power to reach many hearts and souls and I pray you do it.

Much love to you and all who have shown support.

[f_a]

hey i dont think you should let pple put you down no matter what i know there is someone out there for you my dear,you know in this world n ot evryone can make you feel good infact most of them will make you feel useless but dont take it personal it's them not you who has the problem.anyone who cant co-exist with another person in my opinion he/she should go live with animals ,so my dear dont let no lost soul put your good spirit down,coz though i dont know you i think you are a good person so smile