I will get there someday - Page 2

Shinashki · (#11 (**permalink**))

Dush...I've got nothing but love for yah..
thats why i love using

the choices we make dictates the kinda life we lead!

The choices we make dictates the kinda life we lead

cybil · (#12 (**permalink**))

ha ha ha wassup Aunt Tom can see you are back in town huh?? Keep 'em coming!

And I repeat dush can bury itself alive, dead, standing, seated, kneeling!! I SAID IT!!!

Many have come and gone without kissing arse.

ninawasalimia · (#13 (**permalink**))

dush,

you may not know me or like me but i hope you'll feel better about things.

and forgive me for ruining your thread.

dush · (#14 (**permalink**))

>Dush YOU ARE ANNOYING UGHHH!!!

Oh really, now how did you come to that conclusion? Because I do not write what you want to read? What?
You want me to say that I love being sick, that I am on meds and on the way to recovery? Huh. That I have a loving relationship and all is fine and dandy? Well too bad for you and the rest like you.

>NO ONE WANTS TO MEET YOU DEAL WITH IT,
>IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOUR SICKNESS
>OR HEALTH YOU ARE JUST PLAIN BORING.
>WHAT IS THE POINT OF HOOKING UP WITH
>SOMEONE WHO THINK THEMSELVES AT THE END
>OF THE ROAD ALL THE GODDAMN TIME?

Would you rather I spoke about my job, or my beauty, or my wadrobe? What would you rather I spoke about? My sex life, coz I do have one you will be amazed. Oh I know, you want me to insult and attack other people's posts for that is what you do best. Can't you see not everyone has replied to this post - because they keep their feelings inside, they can control their anger and stop feeling bored about people like me.
I speak about what affects me directly, is with me on a day to day basis and if you don't like it I do not care.

>WHOSE GLASS IS HALF EMPTY ALL THE
>GODDAMN TIME?

My glass is fuller than you think. Would you like to compare notes? I would love to, for anyone who does not realise that some things you just live with and if you don't want to you move on to more inspirational posts.

>YOU ARE ANNOYING, BORING, AND WORSE
>STILL IRRITATING. IF YOU NEED A SHRINK
>GO SEEK ONE. STOP LOOKING FOR LOVE USING
>PITY! do something with your life and
>get it off our faces ACHA UPUZI!

Your faces? You and whose, I come here to openly express how I feel, if you have a problem with that shove it up your a s s. I do not look for love using pity, I come here to say what I cannot say to anyone face to face. That's what the net and anoymity is for.

>If you are a walking corpse, do us all a
>favor and bury yourself early! YES I
>SAID IT!

LMAO
Thanks for letting your feelings out. I appreciate, I'd rather meet the real person behind all that venom than have you be hypocritical. Now that you have said it all move on to another post and leave me alone. I won't put up with people like you, I do not need the drama or issues, so you need to step

dush · (#15 (**permalink**))

>ha ha ha wassup Aunt Tom can see you are
>back in town huh?? Keep 'em coming!
>
>And I repeat dush can bury itself alive,
>dead, standing, seated, kneeling!! I
>SAID IT!!!

I will live a longer and fuller than you. For I know the true meaning of life, friends, love and never take things for granted. You had better realize that you vile human waste.

>Many have come and gone without kissing
>arse.

One thing I know is that I will never kiss your arse. I do not write to get approval from anyone and each individual is entitled to their own opinion. Again I do not need your pity for if I did I would be in your inbox asking for it.
I note down my emotions, fears, thoughts, so I may open others into my world. I have accepted who I am and what I have. I have faced all the trouble and it cannot get worse than this so you can go fish for all I care.

cybil · (#16 (**permalink**))

and if I do not step what do you plan on doing??

ebu threaten me tafadhali :7 :7 :7

dush · (#17 (**permalink**))

>and if I do not step what do you plan on
>doing??
>
>ebu threaten me tafadhali :7 :7 :7

Why don't you do something constructive with your glass half full, exciting, drama-filled life? Like maybe make a baby and name it Cybil?
I know that you thrive on such - go grow into a beanstalk and get the gold laying hen from the giant.

Kyalo · (#18 (**permalink**))

I don't know you Dush(pardon my previous comment) but it sounds like you have it together. From experiences of working in a mogue(chiromo) I thought i had learned to distance myself from emotions resulting from death or lose of a loved one. When i looked into the eyes of my closest aunt before she died, i realised different. Anyway, your thread invokes similar emotions(not necessarily pity) though i don't know you or what the problem is. Just keep your head up and live today. One question I always asked myself was "what would i miss if I died today?" Suprisingly, not much. I would miss my family and close friends but not the hussle of living. Seems like a futile mission. Just hang in there and know though some of us may not know you, we do love you and you are already on the LISTS. Visit cancer wards and see how life can be unfair............. sucha waste.

shira · (#19 (**permalink**))

'END IS JUSTIFIED BY THE MEANS'
dush "u'll get there someday"..is what's pulling u down right now..u've gotten there already...look at you..ur eloquence in speech just by the way u write ur words tells it all...seeing other people's achievements on mashada is just but the unrealistic part of the tip of the iceberg...'ure life should not revolve around the accomplishments people have made by making new friends here but the impact u have made on everyone around u, u're family, first and foremost...lookin' for love in all the wrong places and i'm talkin' love in general, will take u no where, let it come to u..instead of sulking, smile:7 mpaka all out there can call u "happy freak"..it does work trust me!

Wakili · (#20 (**permalink**))

dush,

You came to Safari that saturday when the mashadites were there, yet u chose to remain anonymous. why?

Then you decide that nobody wants to meet you?

I can not claim to know what you are going through. I have no idea. I can say this, if you make the choice to distance yourself do not be suprised if people do the same.

I was willing to meet each and every mashadite that turned up that day, not for any particular reason but just to say hi and get to talk to them. I went there with no expectations and if you had come up and said hi my name is dush I would have responded likewise.

Certainly not everyone will treat you well, you probably have and will continue to face discrimination, but do not use that as an excuse to discriminate against those of us who are HIV negative. Not all of us will hate you, some of us have the ability to see beyond your status. You need to meet people halfway.

I was shocked to hear that you turned up and chose to 'ignore' the mashadites who were there. I thought it was rude. You had your reasons but please do not try to second guess people's reactions.

If I decide not to put you on my who I would like to meet list, don't assume it is because of your status, there could be a number of reasons.

I am too blessed to be stressed