Well people am back.Been gone afew days and I have just read your responses.Some of you have been really harsh

but I expected that.I guess if I couldnt get it from my boyfriend I had to get it from somewhere.Thanks for that I actually feel better.....I deserved it.Others have been very nice and understanding.Thank you too.
You might be wondering what is going on with me and him?Well he is still nice.Now am convinced he isnt acting.I prefer to be optimistic.I choose to believe he isnt playing mind games with me.I will love him with all I have got.I wunt ask any questions.He is taking me on a trip to coast this weekend.I have done shopping.... yani sexy lingerie and bathing suit,body soufle,massage fragrances and oils etc....(and I have spruced up my appearance).I will try make it up to him.(I just pray he isnt planning on ditching me while there.....damn I have to get those thoughts out of my head).
Some one asked why I cheated?Well I dont know.I cant explain.It was just a stupid mistake.The guy is not worth losing my man for.He is good.....for eye candy but he didnt even match up to my man(in bed...or in any other way).And NO I dont want him anymore.
Some one else said my boyfriend might be popping the question soon

oooh I hope so and if he does am saying yes...(I pray he wunt leave me standing at the alter as his revenge....damn!got to get that out of my head!)
Thanks everyone.