[rima]

MM
Have you ever made a decision, what you thought was the best thing to do at the time, and realised later that it will be something you'll always regret?
We were seeing each other, and you were everything that I wanted in a person - you're funny, intelligent, amazing! But I had a lot of stuph going on in my life and I pushed the one thing that I longed for forever... you.
I still remember that day in the storm water drain, when I told you that what we had was over. With every word, I could feel my heart fall further and further down my chest until it fell and rolled out onto the cold concrete floor. I swear I could actually see your heart break, and mine broke along with it.
I caused you so much pain - I did things I should never have done, things I'll always regret (and you know me, the guy who only regrets the things she hasn't done, rather than the things she has).
I remember thinking about you a lot one day, when I checked the answering machine, and it was you. You asked if there was a place that you could drop off my stuph, seeing as you were going to be in town and all. I sent you a msg back, giving details of where you could leave my stuph, and that I didn't blame you for hating me - cos I hate me too. Your reply, telling me you were 'over it', devastated me. I mean, I know it's selfish, but I guess that I was holding on to some slim, small hope.
But I guess you're happy now, doing all the wonderous and amazing things that you said you'd do. I guess you've found someone to bend balloons with for all the straight-laced people of the world, and if so I'm glad. Really, I am. You deserve to be happy. I just hope he realises just how lucky he is, and to never let you slip through his fingers.
You know what's really silly? Sometimes, when it's really quiet, I swear I can hear your voice, telling me in a really soft voice, 'I love you'.
I love you too.
I can't apologise to you in person, and I'll never speak to you again, so this is as close as I can get to telling you how sorry I am. I just wish that by some strange twist of fate, you'll 'wield the mighty Google' and stumble across this site.
Dream lots. Laugh lots. Hope lots.

Me

[Siko]

Mashada-- giving hope and comfort to thousands of victims across the globe. cheers

[dali_taita]

I understand how you are feeling. Did the same to someone I love and married someone else.I am unhappy in my marriage.Today I regret what I did and can't help thinking of my first love who is also married now.We have to vumilia and move on even if it is hard. C'est la vie