[Tranexual]

Enough debate has gone on and on for a couple of years on the forums posted on this website about homosexuality.Its fair enough that being a monority and basically non recognised member of society,for me to bring out the transexual/transgender issue.
Many may classify me as a homosexual but my main reason for writing this post is to educate.Well,...i welcome all kinds of responses.I know the idea of homosexuality hasn't yet sunk into the minds of conservative kenyans and the world in general which leads me to believe that the posts sent to this topic may be offensive and transphobic.I believe that there are many children and adults too that face the same problem,.......to be specific disorder that i was diagnosed with.being here in the USA may give me the chance to bring to light the misunderstandings associated with my disorder.
Growing up was tough for me.I was the guy who looked like a chick,acted like a chick and played with chicks.Much as i did not know why I was different,it was the cause of numerous arguements with my mother and my father before he passed away.I appled nail polish and was beaten because of that.I wore make up,tight pants,female clothes and treated my hair.It was clear that dear ol mommy would not win over me.Over my teenage years i thought that i was gay,.....i thought something was wrong with me so I told mom that i only liked guys,earning me a seat at a psychologists office.
He never helped me though he informed me of a surgery that took place in 1989 of a kenyan man named Faith kithaka at kenyatta hospital.High school=torture.I was teased,imitated,called a homosexual,accused of sleeping with a teacher.To make it worse it was an all boys school,.....no chillez to play with,.....no chillez to braid hair(mpaka piece najua kushuka)and last of all no buddies.I tried the gay lifestyle in my highschool years,..........I discovered soon after leaving school that gay guys liked being guys,.......and they liked guys,....not girls.To me i was a girl,......at least in my mind.
After getting accepted to a colle in the states,i knew my chance to be out had come,at least when i got there.I had no clue that i suffered from Gender Dysphoric Behaviour.Im thinking im gonna get a guy who will accpet me for who i am,......but still i was uncomfortable with my body.Waking up every morning and looking at your chest=no boobs while in your mind you feel like a woman.Looking at my male organs just repulses me,.....some transexuals are known to chop off their organs because of the disorder.
Well,in colle i did some research.Gender Dysphoric DIsorder affects quite a number of individuals.Its confused for homosexuality.An individual feels trapped in the wrong body,.......its like you know youre an african in your mind but looking in the mirror everyday you see a caucasian person.Its HORRIBLE!I met a schoolmate of mine whose name wasAngelina,..........she is a transexual.She gave me a psychiatrists contacts close to the colle where i was.I visited him and he told me that most transexuals can live with the disorder,......in others female or male hormones are given to the individual with close watch and intense psychotherapy.Then three years later the sexual reassignement surgery is done.
I embarked on my journey to womanhood two years ago.SInce i did that i have never looked back.The hormones changed me loads.i grew no facial hair,nor bodily hair,.......my skin became smother and smoother by the day,......i grew hips and became rounder,fat deposition in my body shifted to my lower face and pretty much under the skin to give me the curvuy appearance,my hair became thicker,......i could no longer have erections,.......i had no sperm amd my organs shrunk.Did i mention i grew breasts?

Sounds gross???? Well in a year i will undergo my sexual reassignemt surgery.That will match my brain with my body.I live fulltime as a woman now and people dont even know.I moved to San Francisco where people are much open minded,theres free hormonal treatment,cheap Surgery and all the resources that you need as a tranny.
Enough said,my family knows though they are not supportive at all.Hopefully someday i will change their minds.I never asked to be born this way and the only way to correct it is by administering hormones and changing the organs to fit what the mind tells the individual.Maybe one day i can help open a transgender clinic in kenya for all the kids out there that dont know whats up with them.Confused adults and generally anyone who has the disorder.Now im free,i can give that Naomi Campbel of a model competition,i model and dance in a restaurant where we do choreographed numbers,...........all the waitresses are transexuals!!
Thats too much info........................Hopefully someone out there is educated,...even one,........hey.....its better that nothing isnt it???




I have commited no crime. My only "sin" was to be born in the wrong body. Forced into the open, I will speak out for transsesxuals everywhere, and I will continue to fight a government that allows its doctors to perform gender reassignment surgery, but refuses to acknowledge those who benefit from that technology."

[bunny22]

Its a good thing to be honest and know exactly where you stand in life ( in relation to what you just posted), I only have one question for you...why do you feel the need to justify your actions in a public forum....is it a cry for help???? I mean personally I dont judge peple for what they decide to do or become in life because that will not affect me in anyway but the majority of people will not come forward and pat you on the back or sympathise with your plight simply because youre out with it..... I was just wondering....whats your motivation for the post???? Is it to educate others or just to share with others what youve been through???? Just curious...

PS; I have nothing against you...

[NDUU MWANA A NGUNGU]

@tranexual.
I trained as psychologist,and I can perfectly understand where you're coming from.
Are you by any chance a Kamba like me?mwanoo wii munyambo mulumu!
Due to lack of exposure and limited education of most mashadiities be prepared for the worst replies.
Personally I dont mind transexuals at all,its a great scientific achievement that we can choose to have our sex altered.
I specifically support it in cases of xyx-hermaprodites and all.
KEEP IT ROLLING BABE,I WOUNT MIND MEETIMG YA!

[Tranexual]

Well,
It may seem that i am seeking sympathy but not.I would just lke people to see what some kids face in Africa just because of ignorance that is blatantly common there.I have faced a hard life but its all behind me.There was a time i seeked sympathy and friends for a shoulder to cry on but now i realise thaty if i do so i will continue seeking maybe forever as the the concept is still fresh on peoples minds.
Yes i am a kao,.....my mom is a taita though
Hey so far the two responses posted arent so bad after all,...please excuse my grammatical mistakes,......my keyboard is a million years old!!

[Cookie]

i'll be blunt and brief. its good that you acknowledged that you have some personality disorder (mental illness). what you missed was that your body wasnt sick. it was your mind. whatever you did to your body was a total waste. you should have sought psychiatric intervention. now you got a sick mind in a dysfunctional body.

PS. so are you now a lesbian or a fag?

either way, you just reduced your life expentancy by 20 - 30 yrs

[Tranexual]

For starters i asked God for help and he answered my prayers,.......i got out of Kenya.Second of all,.....it seems you never understood what i wrote in the post.You say that i have messed up my body too,.....something of that nature and that it was a mind problem.One thing y ou should understand is that when you are sick you get treatment,......when you have a disorder you seek treatment.What does the treatment entail? It entails hormone therapy and psychotherapy with close monitoring of the hormone intake.
The "Harry Benjamin Standards of care" which is used by psychiatrists to diagnose the disorder classifies me as a female,......if i chose to date girls it would classify me a lesbian,if i chose to primarily date men i would be classified a straight female.So the "me seeking psychotherapy part"is quite irrelevant,......but of course you have your opinion and you can choose to disagree with the world's best scientists research and modes of treatment of the disorder.
Thing is homosexuality is a sexual preferance thing, do you like men or women is the question here, while transexuality is a gender thing, are you male or female,.......Female hormones on transexual make them look and live longer,.....facts from Harvard medical school,.......so im not decreasing my life expectancy rate,
By the way,.......check out my pics in my profile on the html........youll be suprised!!!
http://photos.yahoo.com/sam_mutua
http://profiles.yahoo.com/sam_mutua

[rashad]

from kudinya to kudinywa????????

[Tranexual]

I have never been with a woman sexually,...lesbians have kissed me and i have kissed them back,.......
In the early nineties a supermodel surfaced in the UK Caroline Cossey Tuala was a British supermodel,she did commercials and was a bond girl before someone outed her as being a tranny which led to the end of her career,....she is my role model!
http://tgmedia.enacre.net/lorna_lynne/tula.html

[Trafalgar]

Scary S-hit :( .... San Francisco scares the hell out of me.

http://i.cnn.net/si/images/football/...chigan_100.gif

http://trafalgars.blogspot.com/


"Son,if you don't make a noise God will never know you're there".

[cwangari]

ARE YOU STILL SAM MUTUA? AMA U CHANGED YOUR NAME? THIS IS TOTALLY INTERESTING! Have you been home since you changed your look? it must be very difficult for your family. Nway all the best, do you have a mano and does he know?