[Barbie Girl]

When I was in college my friend Gina and I used to go to Denny's late at night or early in the morining, and we always saw this lady there. I don't remember her name, but she would always have a plate of apple pie with ice cream on top. She would take one bite off it, and then just stare at it. When the ice cream had melted a little she started talking to it. Eventually Gina and I struck up a converstaion with her since she looked so lonely. We found out that her husband had passed away some time ago and she had been living alone. I also found that she smelled like cat piss. I felt bad for her, but failed to realize that my hunger for an education and career might put me in the same place as her. Alone. At Denny's. Smelling like cat piss.

Is this what my future holds? Am I destined to be a widow by default just because I don't need a man for my living? The last guy I dated suddenly exclaimed to me, after only five dates....."You're going to leave me, aren't you?" And he wouldn't let go of that idea. It's as if just because I didn't need his money he thought I didn't need him. He totally blew it! I didn't want anything from him except his companionship. If he wanted to work or stay at home I would not have cared. Every person brings a certain amount of insecurity into a relationship, and I wanted to work through the issue with him and let him know that I too had insecurities, and we could both work on them together. But he wouldn't. He just freaked out and took off. What more could I do? I'm looking for a man that just wants a loving companion. I don't care about money or status. SAVE ME FROM THE CAT PISS!