[Whitehead]

Kwanza girl Pole sana. You sound like a strong person and I wish you the best as you battle your illness. Isn't it ironic that you are battling a terminal disease which is life-threatening yet you cannot muster the courage to deal with the trivialities of a relationship? Look at it this way. He is not God. The only two possible outcomes is that he will be supportive and you two together will work something out or two, he will run away in which case good riddance to a flake.

I always find that when you want to reveal "inside" information, booze helps a lot hehehe..but in your case it might not be healthy to be taking booze. Anyways you can write him a letter if you can't tell him in person.

Personally I have found that when I meet someone I tell them the worst things about me first and thats usually a way to weed out the chaff. My current dude, on our first date I laid my cards on the table and gave him an option to walk out and I thought he would but I was surprised he was so into me and you know what, there is so much trust in the relationship. Even my close friends know the worst things about me I always make a point of telling them and you will be surprised how supportive people can be.

Secrets will kill you faster than a terminal disease. All the best.