[mahatma]

>I can see that closure thing, but it was just hard to get
>closure.
>
>I remember very well that day I came back from the US embassy
>and I told her that I got the Visa and that I would be flying
>out the next week. Man, the chick just suddenly broke down and
>started crying. She turned around and ran back into the
>house.
>
>I have never felt so shytty in my whole life. I felt so guilty
>for leading her on like we were going to be together forever
>and then turn around and say I'm leaving.
>
>It was even worse that weekend when we went to Crni together
>and I caught her a couple of times just staring at me with
>such sadness in her eyes. I felt like the biggest jerk in the
>world.
>
>I told her that I didn't know when or if I was gonna come back
>and that she shouldn't feel she has to save herself for me. I
>just didn't think it was fair to expect her to put her life on
>hold for me. But then she started crying and said she would
>hear nothing of it. She chose to believe that someday we would
>be together again.
>
>When I got married, I was too chicken to call her and tell her
>coz I knew she would start crying and make me feel bad. So I
>just e-mailed her and broke the news to her.
>
>One of you asked if my wife is the same girl who kazia'd me
>the pudesh. Well, yes it's the same one. It's times like these
>when we are going through a rough patch that I tend to
>remember my old girlfriend. It just seems that we never fought
>as many times as I fight with my wife, and it makes me miss
>those good old days.
>
>I don't know what to do.





One thing that i dont get here is, are you still communicating wit this chic? How does she take it? When you wrote the email about yua wedding, what did she say?
You have left out way too much info that wud assist in trying to give yu a logical answer. BTW, maybe the chic long forgot about about yu and moved on wit her life.